#i love talking about this game. if it wasnt obvious lol

[esnuppi]

i like this interpretation! before, i had the idea that anya was acting in a panic mode, partially kickstarted by the revelation of her pregnancy, partially from the birthday party incident a few days prior, finding out she would be coming back to earth with no job or savings— now feeling like she has nothing left to lose by taking action. another detail about the party scene i don’t see discussed: jimmy’s outburst at the table likely did not help her fears regarding how he might behave as time goes on (if he can lash out at their captain, in front of everyone, what could he do to her and get away with? like her, would he also have nothing to lose now? if so, what does that make him capable of?). so i think it could be both, she’s panicked and she’s trying to push curly to do something.

besides, it was only a matter of time before she starts to show as the pregnancy moves further along, might as well tell jimmy now on her own terms instead of waiting for the inevitable (something that i also feel ties into the themes for her as a character from how she takes her final action of locking herself in the medical room— choosing to end her life her way rather than wait for supplies to run out, or worse, for jimmy to make the choice for her)

more on the topic for why anya wouldn’t just wait a little bit longer for curly, because i find these details really compelling and i feel the urge to ramble:

when you think about the timeline of when anya was assaulted by jimmy in order for her to find out about the pregnancy herself in the week of the crash (assuming she just tracked missed periods since pregnancy tests on the ship are unlikely) it was probably between 1-2 months prior to the start of the games events. which means she was suffering alone for all that time, keeping the incident to herself (likely out of a combination of fear for jimmy further harming her, pony express retaliating against the entire crew, AND not knowing how curly, the person with the highest position of power, will even respond since jimmy is a longtime friend of his that he has so far been leaving unchecked. even if anya and curly had a good trusting relationship before this, it’s still a terrifying thing to talk about with anybody).

im sure a major factor in her unwillingness to continue waiting for curly to take action at the final day mark is because of this. for curly, he’s only had knowledge of what jimmy’s done to her for about a day. but for anya, its been months. months of feeling trapped, not knowing what will happen next, not once ever feeling safe, not having any assurance that help will come.

reading the final part of @mikoworks comic “always there” and it’s making me Realize things. i always wondered why anya decides to tell jimmy about the pregnancy. if she’s seen what kind of man he is, why would she ever put herself at risk by telling him?

it’s because curly is failing her. but she knows she can get his attention by setting jimmy off. to make him a “real” threat that even curly can’t ignore. anya wanted jimmy to lash out, or to at least get aggressive. then curly would actually have to do something about him. an immediate action instead of hesitating even longer. unfortunately none of them could’ve predicted how extreme jimmy’s reaction would be

[toanw]

a couple of alchepre designs I haven't posted yet!! the mascots (sylph, gnome, undine, and salamander), latecomer villain (inanis), and big good (queen beryl splendor prima)

[lovecrazedpup]

when my friend is at work so i cant cry in call with him !

[stupidrant]

RANT INCOMING!

I have to talk abt this as this has been in my mind for months and this i think is the only safe space to talk abt the fandom and their weird antics towards the characters/actors and overall games.Im not against criticism but theres a line between criticizing and going overboard with hating.

One thing i dont understand abt the god of war fandom is that they complain about alot of things not being “accurate” and thats doesnt make sense to me bc when has gow ever been accurate? I thought it was obvious from the beginning that SMS wasnt going for that and never truly will. Its always their own interpretation. They also have this weird hatred / ignorance towards atreus that i also dont understand? Yea he was a little annoying in the first game but thats understandable as hes… a kid. Ragnarok expanded his character pretty well imo and i feel like alot of these people for some reason cannot get past him in general? Maybe because they are afraid of him taking over the series and “forgetting” kratos (idk why thats in their minds LOL) or they just hate him just because. I feel like the fandom wants kratos to forever be this god who destroys things and whatnot and its all so weird. like they never gave him a chance. thankfully he has fans but majority hates him. Dont even get me started on how they treat angrboda. Its really so ridiculous to me that they can be so hateful for no true reason. they call her a bitch for yelling at atreus when all the women in the game get annoyed or disappointed in him atleast once. And they dont understand that she has only known this prophecy shit for her whole life and she couldnt do anything outside bc of the threat. ofc shes angry bro LOLL its also in her name like i dont understand 😭.  Atreus helps her get out of that mindset and assures her she can do whatever she wants now. Laya is so strong idk how she does it :( I also noticed they treat thrud as this “replacement” of angrboda bc they dont like her either cuz shes black or bc they hate her and everything related to atreus but as long as he has a character they can like thats not angrboda its fine. Its all so weird bc theres no competition between the two. There never was. I dont think they actually like thrud for her character they just want to be weirdos and i feel kinda bad for her and mina bc they really dont give a fuck. Im so shocked chris sunny and others even INTERACT with this bullshit of a fandom they are all really strong bc id say fuck all of you and go 😭 im not against criticism at all and i try not to take this shit seriously but its hard when you see a insane group of people take alot of this shit to the next level. this fandom is a bunch of whiny babies who hold onto their precious destroyer too much. The hate everyone has gotten recently is just so stupid and they often times try to make it their goal to hate. I see that SMS is trying to diverge their fandom to a broader audience and they are taking a bit more risks esp with atreus and i love that despite the backlash against him, they continued with his character regardless. I hope they do the same thing with the other characters as well and expand them no matter how much these people want to hate and act all high and mighty. I can understand certain critiques like the ending being too fast or maybe they couldve done blah blah better and whatnot but i think alot of people are overreacting and being ridiculously nitpicky with alot of things when it comes to ragnarok. 

Last thing and also kinda random thing SMS is very wrong for what they did to TC Carson and i acknowledge that completely and i hope they never do smth like that to any of the current cast either bc i would be fucking pissed if so LOL

[ashenberry]

lol you poor misguided child. it's pretty obvious that the kaz date is a parody of the paz date which in itself is obviously lighthearted. a romantic walk on the beach at sunset with the cheesiest sappiest dialogue. yeah very kaz. not. its not supposed to be taken seriously. why don't you think it was referenced again? seems pretty important to their character development that they were lovers no? strange it's never referenced or hinted at ever again.

[ID in ALT]

did i fuckin. forget a disclaimer in the rewritten version of that last ask. my bad maybe. my point wasnt that mgs queer rep is praise worthy its done bad. kojima women bad. my point was that going into it with "No Nuance No Subtext Unless Its Bad" is a bad mindset to go into this with especially because like. its still not good even if you acknowledge that the writers might know that their protagonists might come of a bit gay?

Like what i think the closest thing i got to praise in that was saying that yes i think its bad that strangelove was perving on cecil and paz. i think its bad to have your only lesbian character hook up with a dude at the end of the game, despite any of the watsonian explanations. I think the "only women are capable of empathy" attitude she has in the cassetes is bad. but i also think her story in the meat of the game of doing whatever it takes to talk to the women she loved again is interesting and i think you have an incomplete analysis if you just disregard either side of that.

the whole point of bringing up a date with kaz is that it was just a silly double standard to draw the line. yknow the beach scene is clearly a joke and can be disregarded it never comes up again but the coy line into dick grab is clearer then day. and like i do agree i think volgin and raikovich is when the games are at its worse it is comically bad i think its weird to kneecap yourself out of talking about that bc "pervs on dudes in the shower" bb and "womanizer" kaz somehow redeems all of metal gears sins if theyre having gay sex in that box its silly.

and i truly. honestly. do not give a shit about most of these ships. i think is a consequence of the fact that the games write devotion to a Person a Concept a Cause etc really interestingly and i truly think it was only done romantically once w/ strangejoy but i think thats why alot of characters come off Like That to most fans. anyways im sorry you thought my post was saying mgs had some banging queer rep and not just. making fun of that anons mindset when it came to critique and analysis but i also think you maybe might have skimmed my post a little

[zapsoda]

hullo love. as i may quote les mis, Tell me quickly what's the story / Who saw what and why and where / Let him give a full description / Let him answer to Javert!, what is going on with the essayists/hbomberguy/plagiatists? im not familiar with that side of usamerican youtube game but im all for the tea

so hbomberguy is a youtube man (i am not an avid viewer but he is leftish and makes long video essays so hes PRETTY popular on here) the other day he dropped a long ass video about plagiarism on youtube, totally pwning an assortment of youtubers ranging in popularity.

among them, the most notable are illuminaughti, internet historian, and james somerton.

illuminaughti is/was a youtuber who would shift from popular topic to popular topic for clout. eventually she landed on video essays which she would churn out on the regs

she was/still is in a contraversy which started because she accused another youtuber of "stealing" her "editing style," because HIS editor asked HER editor how to do some fucking generic video effects. this, obviously, was stupid.

hbomberguy took the opportunity on twitter to point out her directly lifting words from a documentary she based one of her own videos on, without direct credit (it was just a fucking link to the documentary in a google doc in the description), thus making it appear as if those were her own words.

then, her former friends started calling her out for weird vindictive shit behind the scenes, but its 3 peoples word against hers and not interesting enough to be anyone elses business.

anyways, hbomberguy covered all her plagiarism stuff (she has done this several times lol) in further detail within the video.

the next one was internet historian.

you might have heard of him, he makes videos i think. (i am... less familiar with him lmao.) i think hes known for his distinct matpat-esque animation style and his collabs, making him pretty well respected among youtubers i think?

so he made a video called "man in cave" which was VERY popular. he went all out with the animation and told a vivid tale of a certain man who got trapped in a cave.

suddenly though, this VERY popular video disappeared without a trace. it had seemingly been taken down for youtube copyright reasons... as you can imagine this is very vague, and Usually when this happens its over some complete and utter bullshit, so people were inclined to side with him, yet, strangely, he made no efforts to rectify this "mistake" on youtubes part.... hm....

later, he silently reuploads it, unlisted. yet. somethings different.... this isnt quite the same video. the language has been changed in many places, the writing is significantly worse. some bits have been cut entirely. and in the description, he thanks a certain mentalfloss article written by lucas reilly for "inspiring" him....

upon a cursory look through the article, something becomes readily apparent. the structure of the youtube video, an hour by hour retelling- the vivid descriptions which made the original video what it was, they all originated in this article published years ago.

i cannot relay this without mentioning how much worse internet historians writing was despite it being stolen. see, he would embellish and change certain things to make it less blatantly obvious he was lifting the whole thing (including... facts about the story.... lmao) and he would do so BADLY. very badly.

hbomberguy went into FAR more depth about this, even doing side by side comparisons of the article to his video with animations pointing out the bits he altered.

but the video wasnt really about any of those people, they were just setting the stage. they were giving you a taste of plagiarism in action, how and why people do it, and how they try to cover it.

by far, the main event was a gay youtuber who talks about gay things by the name of james somerton.

im actually only like halfway through his section lol.

it seems to me that he plagiarizes every aspect of his videos, like he googles the topics he wants to talk about, finds an article, and then reads that but changes the words here and there.

the only original words in his videos that ive seen were REALLY odd transphobia and misogyny that he would pepper in or go off in tangents about. he misgendered two trans writers (Rebecca Sugar and ND Stevenson) and called becky abertelli straight, specifically calling them straight women writing about their cutesy idealized version of gay mens lives. actually fucking identical to the shit open transphobes say about transmasculine people.

whats worse is becky abertelli CAME OUT because she was forced to by people harrassing, doxing, and threatening her for the crime of being a closeted woman writing about gay characters!

after being called out multiple times (and sending his fans after the individuals calmly addressing his plagiarism) he started OCCASIONALLY using credit in the descriptions, or saying he "based" his work on theirs.

he doesnt do this when he thinks he can get away with it though

hbomberguy does these incredible visuals dividing up transcripts of james videos based on where each section was lifted from

thats as far as ive gotten anyways!!

[ni-de-mama]

ace attorney fans on discord, yall are fucking stupid. genuinely this is the stupidest discourse ive seen in my entire fucking life. the owner was removing unsafe people from her server. it's HER fucking server and she has the complete right to. dont dms exist? who the FUCK is policing you here? why do we need to have this fucking war when you could just go to another server with that banned member? fucking hell, have some common sense. the fact that adults are getting so aggressive makes it even worse. the minor here is making stupid decisions and saying stupid things and yall are encouraging her. nobody from the mod team was fucking coddling anyone. they were literally just saying we shouldn't fucking encourage harmful behaviour in their server. literally go encourage it in another server and it won't be any of the mods' business and they won't give a flying fuck. and what's with rejoining after ban with a new account? why the fuck are yall even trying to stay at this point if you hate this server and the mod team then fucking LEAVE. literally what do you want?????????? clearly the mods are being sent into panic attacks because of yall. do yall feel great now??? i was so glad i found a space i could talk in with other aa fans, and now ive lost that thanks to yalls stupid fucking discourse over some idk nearly 30 year old who doesn't know how to communicate properly. and the minor in question? not everything is about you. even i can see that, as a lurker. protecting minors does not mean bending to your every will. fucking hell, this server wasnt made just for you. protecting minors meant protecting all the other minors who felt unsafe, good for you if you didn't! you don't have to be so selfish and want the adult to stay so the other minors can feel unsafe lolllll. why did that mod have to justify them being uncomfortable around that adult? does it not matter that they just did? and now the mods are the ones shutting you down? use your fucking brain please. can't believe i have to lose this place because of this. literally everyone got too comfortable with hurting the mods here. its not even like yall couldve done a better job communicating with the banned member, the mod team clearly did their best to communicate with someone who only knew how to retaliate to their every request. are yall blind? i could see that happen, how come yall couldnt? bc yall are their friends obvious fucking ly. not to mention the banned member started spreading rumours that the owner called them a predator? fucking almost 30yo and youre still spreading rumours? christ on earth lol i saw everything. i saw the video i saw screenshots. that did not happen. is it that hard to look at this situation with less bias towards the ""victim""?? hope yall are happy that yall hurt the other members who love this place, and most of all the mod team who has to deal with yalls bullshittery. fucking wake up and see how stupid yall have been acting. jfc this is disgusting, yall disgust me, in a server for a game abt law yall clearly have not learnt anything. bringing your horrifying reading comprehension from tumblr to discord. sorry, clearly yall did not even fucking read whatever the mods said. yall ask for an explanation, the mods gave you one, you rebut it with a completely irrelevant point and then we go back to square one? not only that but yall kept demanding answers angrily, hostile and aggressive. how many times did the mods say they would be releasing a statement soon? yall asking for answers would give them no time to write it. and they have fucking lives outside of discord, unlike yall who have nothing to do but shout at strangers on the internet because they wont bend to your will in THEIR server. yall make me laugh. grow the fuck up. all of yall need to grow the actual fuck up.

[hughiecampbelle]

hi!! id love if you could ship me with a succession character :) thanks for doing this and i love your writing !!

i have long curly hair, am 1.67m/6'5"ft and from brazil. im a psychology major and im thinking of going into research and possibly teaching (in universities) eventually. i have autism and adhd, i speak 2 languages fluently (pt-br & english) and know a bit of spanish and i love intellectual conversations. im a somewhat quiet person but i like learning and sharing knowledge so i can get excited and into a conversation quite easily. i like routine and organising things and i kind of a worrier, i think too much about the future and am seldom "present". i hate parties and nightclubs, dislike attention, am a quite private person and prefer to be alone (also i NEED time alone or i go crazy) or with a small group of people. also im a ravenclaw in case it wasnt obvious lol (unlikely).

im very nerdy, im a star wars, doctor who, lord of the rings etc fan and i also love video games (currently playing witcher 3 and stardew valley <3). i love musicals and i listen to many different genres, but mostly alternative and pop.

i dont feel the need for luxurious things and big houses and expensive cars, my dream house is a small 1 room apartment with a balcony in a big city (like london or barcelona). my dream life would probably be said apartment, a cat, a job that i liked and being able to wake up and have breakfast in my balcony just listening to the birds sing and watching the people walking on the street. i like anonymity and just being another face in the crowd, being able to just observe the world around me; which is probably one of the reasons im so drawn to big cities.

in terms of my type, i love smart people that can hold interesting and deep conversations. i also dislike rude people and immaturity and stupidity annoy me a bit (i dont mind it in friends but i think that if i spent too much time with someone like that id murder them lol). i smoke weed but i dont feel the need to date someone that does as well, since i dont do it that often – and its the only drug i do.

hope this isnt too much or not enough djcjsksk anyway thanks again !!! have a good day :)

Hi my love! I ship you with: Shiv Roy!!!

She loves how nerdy you are. Every time she sees something about Lord of the Rings or Doctor Who or Star Wars she thinks of you. It could be something little like a key chain or something bigger like an all-night screening of the Star Wars movies, it always makes her smile. She's not the biggest fan of it, but when you're watching she can't help but enjoy it. She loves how excited you get when you talk about it, about your favorite characters or the plot. It brightens her day. She also loves how smart you are. Shiv is surrounded by idiots, mostly her brothers and father. To be able to come home and use her brain and have a stimulating conversation with you, it brings a smile to her face. You're incredibly intelligent and she can't get enough of it. You have worked so hard to get where you are, put in so many study hours, she can't help but feel proud of you.

You love how driven she is. Shiv knows what she wants and what she wants, she gets, even if she has to take a lot of shit from those around her to get it. She works so hard under her family and you couldn't be prouder. She puts everything she has into her work and unfortunately doesn't get the recognition she deserves. You're there to remind her that she's doing an amazing job, that she's Shiv Roy and that people should be scared when they hear her name.

Your relationship is smart. The both of you are fiercely intelligent go-getters. You don't have time to waste on mind games and wondering what the other is thinking and small things that should worry you as a couple, but doesn't. You talk openly about your wants and needs and feelings. Shiv figures she plays enough mind games at the office, with clients and her brothers and her father, she can't come home and do that there, too. It would be exhausting. You both know what you want in life and you get it, easy as that. You want to go out to dinner for date night so you do. You want to take an impromptu vacation so you do. Your relationship is easy and comfortable and to the point.

Your first date is for drinks. She takes you to this place that she knows that won't be too crowded or busy or flashy, but of course her definition of flashy is far different than yours. It's there she is able to open to you, ask questions, relax. It's rare you get to see this side of her, you welcome it. She laughs a lot when she's around you. She can't remember the last time she felt so at ease around someone. She wants to keep feeling this way, she wants to keep spending time with you.

Relationship Headcanon: Shiv surprises you one weekend to a little apartment she bought in London just for you. She surprises you with breakfast in bed and makes your dream come true. It's a beautiful little place you two can escape to when things are stressful and you need a break. You people watch from the balcony, just the two of you, letting the day slip by. It's one of the most wonderful days you spend together.

Thank you my love!!! Hope you like it! 💜💜💜

[yuukei-yikes]

You make me want to rewatch the anime...wonder if i can force my husband to watch it with me(he showed me it but it was like...highschool its been sooo long)

Since everyone has autism/hj? Do u have any headcanons for special interests?

I FUCKING LOVE THIS ASK also husband?? HUH?? KAGEFANS ARE MARRIED ALREADY??? huh...well...kagepro IS 12 years old HUH...HAHAHA *holds head* (happy late kageversary, btw)

everyone is autistic. yeah.

ayano's is 1000% all the superhero shit. comicbooks. i like to think of her as a huge spiderman fan. i think she'd love the guy. BUT YEAH comicbooks, superhero franchises in general lol

kido's is music! i imagine them as the kind of person who basically studies a whole album when it comes out LMAO i also think theyre the kind to be embarrassed abt talking a lot so theyre probably online a lot and is instead active in there. they rotate hyperfixating on different bands but music in general <3 also i think they hyperfixate on cooking sometimes and they will just cook and cook and cook one thing after another. it used to be a problem when they only lived with 3 other ppl but now there's like 10 more and also haruka so <3 no more wasted food!!!!

fuckgn. seto. animals. ANIMALS. ANIMALS. ANIMALS. i love ppl with animal special interests bc its literally the fucking BEST thing to talk about ever. and mary is plants. theyre both into each other's things too so their talks are so awesomely autistic i think seto and mary just talk for hours and hours and are always asking each other questions and if seto had a long day marys just like tell me abt why birds are fun colors like blue but not other animals :) and seto's like :DDDDD

momo and kano..... hmmm.. everyone else's seems so obvious. but them... like i see momo getting hyperfixated with a ton of different shit always rotating from lets players to toy collecting to makeup to lost media and etc etc but i cant think of like the One thing. kinda same with kano i feel like his thing is that he doesnt know who he is or what he wants so he wouldnt even Have his one thing. i think he'd be super into makeup tho. bc thats awesome but not only cutesy makeup but like special effects insane kinda thing. hes like whoa ppl change so much without any powers......... lol special effects makeup artist kano real

takane. lol. god theyre all so fucking obvious. coding. and i love takane but programmer ppl are SOOOOOO ANNOYING god this bitch would be insufferable. but the autism makes it awesome so its ok theyre not annoying <3 obviously videogames too. UGH harutaka indie game developers is so real to me. also this one is more my hc but erm technician takane is real he is real to me <3 the dan out of wifi bc this bitch took apart the router AGAIN just bc they like looking at the insides. the dan is complaining until the wifi is back AND its faster bc takanes improving and hacking shit. she helps shintaro build his epic pc

shintaro ohhh mygod have u ever met a more autistic bitch than this. he is everything. music!!!! like kido!!!!!!!!! i think kido and shintaro are an underrated duo. in the novels they hang out so much. wait im getting off topic ERM pianist shintaro is real to me idc. also super into collectibles of anime figures lol. also videogames!!! and lost media. i think he'd be one of those people super excited that a secret burgerking commercial never translated from english was found (momo too, they bond over it)

hibiya with the doll making shit. doll costumizing. also psychology post-shitshow bc hes 12 and hes like whoa. this wasnt normal *studies abt how this will affect him and his friends* i talked abt this in a hibiya ask i got lol but yeah also his whole thing abt making dolls. ofc it comes from something creepy but i still think its a cute thing he knows how to do i think he'd love using his new smartphone to find out abt doll costumizing communities and he sews mini mekakushi dan for everyone <3

i bestow to haruka the autistic honor of dinosaurs. FUCK YEAHHHHHHHHHHH also art/drawing ofc. and cartoons/animation. ppl who like to draw like cartoons okay. he'd be into that. idk if into animating himself i rather see haruka as a painting kinda girl. AND OFC VIDEOGAMES. srry to harutaka again but harutakas autism coexists so harmoniously ...domestic harutaka... these bitches have NO real schedules and are staring at their computers drawing/coding for days. it stinks in there. they make an autistic game together born from their autistic and disabled love. heart<3

i cant think anything for hiyori so hiyori experts feel free to add. maybe idols n stuff!! back to music heh

[sanitizarium]

since u said it was alright to talk to u abt KH -

how’d u get into it? what made you stick around? what’s ur favorite/least favorite game (and how many have you played/watched)? Favorite characters narrative-wise and design-wise? do you like the gameplay or the story more? have u read the manga, and if you have did you like it? is there anything you wish there was more of in the series? anything you feel like is under-appreciated about it? 

sorry if that’s a weird amount of questions lol ive just been into this series since i was in middle school and my brain is [static] [explosions] about it by this point

Also i LOVE your art style and especially the way you draw KH characters!!! I am taking notes!!

OGHHH OKAY OKAY HOLD.ON THANK YOU SO MUCH [EXPLOSION SFX]

i got into kh initially through the mangas around 2012 (my library had the chain of memories manga :] and the kh1 ones) and through seeing dream drop distance on the 3ds eshop but i only got rlly into it after the sora smash reveal!! i stuck around afterwards cuz something about it itches my brain really good......the characters and their interactions make me EXPLODE theyre so good

ive played all the games minus dark road and part of union x (ive played x and unchained x though!!) my favourites are dream drop distance and kh2 :D im also very partial to com on gba... my least favourite is probably kh1? i have nothing against it it just does nothing for me.....

my fav characters design-wise are terra, xigbar, ira, gula, vanitas and roxas!!! and my favourite characters narrative-wise are sora, riku, lea, isa and roxas :] bonus shoutout to xion and namine also for both

i like the gameplay a LOT but for the most part i like the story over the gameplay!! HOWEVER kh2 ddd and kh3 have really good gameplay i love playing those three specifically a lot......

I HAVE READ THE MANGA AND I LOVE IT A LOT it is my favourite way to go through kh its So good... added bonus is the fact that the kh2 manga scans i have are partially very badly translated and its really good

ignoring the obvious stuff id like more of (SORIKU), id really like some more focus on the ff characters and interactions between some characters!! i Need ventus and roxas to talk that glance in kh3 wasnt enough... also i wanna see more namine :( i miss her can we get more namine as a treat

i think on a surface level glance most people just look at kh and go "hehe that one has funny lines" but it isnt enough to see the Absolute Fuckign Sincerity that kh has.... like yes its silly but its sincere!!!! it is genuine and always takes itself super seriously and that has so much charm to it which i dont think most people see :( which is why i think kh is like. a must play series because you genuinely cannot grasp the sincerity behind some of the funnier quotes without having knowledge that isnt surface level (every time i see ppl joke about who am i gonna have ice cream with i wilt a little HES ASKING WHO HES GONNA BE FRIENDS WITH)

[larnax]

officially finished ot2!!! thoughts:

its definitely a game that knows its a sequel to octopath and there were a couple of times i felt like it was poking me in the side and being like "lol you get it its like octopath. this is an octopath game. bet you eat this shit up" especially with the octopuff sidequest and like i did think it was charming but i wasnt happy about it. how dare you clock me as an octopath fan

i think castti, agnea, and hikari's stories are good, i think ochette, throné, partitio, and osvald's stories are Good Except For All The Bad Parts, and temenos' story is the worst story octopath has had since primrose

the monkeys paw sure fucking curled when i said one of the things i didnt like about 1's postgame was that a bunch of the characters had been interacting with important figures in the postgame they just werent allowed to know they were doing it because fuck you. like why didnt tressa and alfyn get to just Meet graham considering how much of their story is About him. what i meant was that it was frustrating to feel as if the postgame made it obvious who the game cared about and who it didnt. what i did not mean was that i wanted throné's story to nosedive at the last minute and spend the finale talking to some guy who is honestly completely irrelevant to her character arc and makes the climax way weaker.

speaking of the postgame though.... it was definitely Cool aesthetically and making it possible for non-insane players to actually find was definitely nice since i wanted to play without any guides, BUT man every time octopath tries to do something with its mythology its so fucking boring to me and this was no exception. i hated how much temenos was The Main Character, i hated the way he monopolized what was allegedly supposed to be he and throné's shared torch, i thought most of the reveals did nothing to make the cast's story any more interesting, and boy oh boy is vide just Galdera, again! both in design and story. i really like octopath's mythology when its just allowed to exist mostly in gameplay details and in vague hints but every time the sacred flame is brought up its just like Please let me go home i dont want to go to sunday school anymore

did not enjoy the way cleric stole a bunch of the best skills especially because it still manages to be ass. all of the skills it stole only work on the speedy, bulky, or evasive characters they were designed for. but whatever i sure do love temenos failing to full heal half my party even with a completely boosted heal wounds, immediately getting killed, reviving and then immediately being killed again the next turn because he cant dodge shit. i think i live in some kind of hellish shadow dimension because everyone seems convinced cleric is good but in the octopath 2 i played not even having a way to deal with status effects made having an actual apothecary on the scene a necessity

would it even be octopath if the thief wasnt completely fucked over. throné girl im so fucking sorry. you couldve been so good. i can fix her

the epilogue is really cute. im a sucker for a good "thanks for playing :)"/"special thanks to You, the player" screen and having all the characters in town for agnea's show is adorable.

i think ot2 is A Good Game. i would recommend it and im glad i played it. they need to take out all that anti-piracy shit though i want video game for free on computer

[single-malt-scotch]

i have repeated this thought to some degree in the past but now i have 130 followers so hopefully i dont get sniped for my perspective lol. but as an old school mindcrack vet i just dont get the "c!" stuff. and i dont mean this in a "please explain this to me". i know what it means-- c! means character, cc! means content creator. so i know that and i know what they imply. people seperate the creator into a "character" and people tend to use that to make it clear theyre talking about a "character" mainly when making headcanons, ships, etc.

what i do mean is. i dont understand how to see these guys as characters unless we are talking like Empires, or even as i see WCsmp (or any cc who states they are playing a character in some way)- those servers are when they have very defined characters often with new names (to be clear i havent watched much of wcsmp, but they got that whole witch thing with loads of lore? so?). hermitcraft isnt often that at all... i know s8 was very unique in the way that a few people did that, and some ppl take on a base aesthetic i can see why people would want to seperate things like that to some degree, making an idea/design/etc out of it or coming up with stuff about the bases- but what they do in videos is 90% of the time meta. its normal cc talk, cc talking about their base/work/game stuff etc etc. putting aside s8 entirely there are no 'characters' to take from most seasons outside of bits maybe-- which means that i see people are just like. making a character out of them, despite there being none. i just never get into the larger fandom, lore, etc because in my head i just dont get why it exists. this isnt a jab at the creative fanworks, its lovely, but i see no point to it because it doesnt stop me from creating like everyone else.

it wasnt like this with mindcrack, there was no "c!' stuff. it was just. the guy. the cc. and that didnt stop us from fan art, shipping, headcanons, and fan fics. im not gonna tell anyone to not seperate ppl into c! and cc! its fine you can do whatever. but in my head i genuinely cant imagine processing it this way unless its actually a server defined as a roleplay server or the cc stating this themself in a whatever context. the ppl i watch (esp people like etho or bdubs (yes even way back when bdubs did the b team mafia bit! it was still The Guy doing a bit)) are just themselves to me, the content creator, but that doesnt mean i think its weird to ship them or write them or whatever. it wasnt weird with mindcrack, so my mindset on this just hasnt shifted at all. (but on a personal note- its why i dont like the idea of making specific gender or sexuality headcanons cuz i feel its wrong to overwrite some real person's identity regardless of c! or cc!). when i first jumped in this fandom i was sooooo confused by this idea. i thought some of these people were playing pretty obvious characters with how much fandom built them up. so the fact i discovered this really wasnt the case confused me more and made it really hard for me to understand this perspective, esp with my oldschool views.

[blissfullybloomed]

Letting Go

October 2024, Ohio - The leaves are in peak season. In case you haven't been outside in a minute. 

Good Morning/Afternoon/Evening, whatever time you seem to find yourself reading this blog. 

I haven't written in a while here, life has been lifing. 

If you’re just tuning in…lol, I watch too many Youtube Videos with my boyfriend, you'll love to know that this blog is about my journey, your journey, our journey together but separate through this little game they call life. 

I think my last blog entry was almost a year ago, December 2023. 

2023 was wild, and the previous 5 years were wilder…(hmm, is that a word)

It's funny, I keep saying that 2023 was the year I transformed into some sort of “better” being…but man, I feel like I could say that about 2024 as well. I think that's a lesson I had to learn quite recently actually…being better has no end date. We constantly strive to be better, even on the less productive days…we're still learning(being still isn't our strong suit). Did you catch that? Being better or improving has no end date…nada. The only way it does have an end date is when we stop trying to be better. We all know what happens when we stop trying. It's not a good look. Temporary pleasure for long term pain….Ehh, I'd rather not. So…we take a real deep breathe and blow it out, maybe take another one…and take a step forward. 

Okay, enough preaching…lets chat about so many things…you know I like to talk. 

First topic, lets talk about letting go. I'm pretty sure Ive spoke about letting go before, but I know I havent talked about it in this light. So buckle up…its going to be bumpy. 

We, as humans, are social creatures. Some of us are on different levels than others, but inadvertently we are all social to some extent. Example: Gaming Online with friends(introverted activity/social concept). Another example: The obvious social butterfly who goes home alone. We all have different versions of what social looks like. 

I almost forgot where I was going with that, but here it is…our social interactions are NEEDED to let go. We have to do something different to let go. We have to put ourselves outside of ourselves to let go. 

It doesn't matter what or who it is that you are trying to let go. You can't negate your human nature. It's impossible. No one can sit in a room by themselves for an extended amount of time, and not go insane from lack of socializing. It doesn't even have to be vocal …just another person's presence brings your serotonin up. 

Being social is in our roots as a species. So with that in mind, I want you to ask yourself this question: “ How can socializing help me move past Xcompany, Xspouse, Xhouse…etc.” Well youd get a job, you might meet someone new, and your house may get an upgrade….BUT, all of those things require you to let go of what or who once was. 

You get the point. 

Here's my “bloomed” story. The short one. 

I have faced 2 big hurdles in my healing journey. 

I have reconnected with my mother, we spent a week together, and were cool. As you know, that's huge for both of us. Wild ride getting there…like years long….but we did it, and I think we're in it for the long haul. Weve both done different things that we had never done to make sure our relationship stayed in tact. Even when we both wanted to walk away. I think the biggest thing that really showed me that she wasnt full of shit was the fact that her actions were bigger and louder than her words. She helped a friend of a family member that I NEVER thought she wouldve done….thats dope. She flew back for my birthday with like 3 days notice(I have a flair for the dramatics)...that was dope. She met Zach, and slept on our couch! YEAH! That right there gave me hellllllllla anxiety…but it was dope too. 

So, in all seriousness, momma…I love ya. Life is hard, but without you it would be so much harder. I mean that. 

Second thing, It took almost three years…but I went back to Myrtle Beach. Yeah thats different. So many reasons that y'all already know of why I couldn't go there…I just needed more time or something. OR so I thought.  

Listen, the drive was about 10/11 hours, but my favorite part was the last hour. I drove through a city I hadn't seen in over 5 years, and the funniest part….when I saw it…I just started laughing. 

I couldnt tell if it was my anxiety making me laugh or the fact that I was a better human fucking being entering this city now 5 years later. I think it was a combo of both honestly. I cant begin to describe what that felt like…I'm trying... .I can't find the words. Speechless. Hmm, maybe profound is a word that could describe it. 

Anyway, I knew at that very moment that I could do this trip with no problems at all. I forgot how much I loved the south. All of it, even the heat…to a point. 

What a relief. I let go. I had let go before I even knew I had let go, because I refused to test myself . I was so scared of things I had built up in my mind that would definitely , not probably, happen. I knew I'd run into my ex husband somewhere, in a town full of tourists, and millions of people…that was an irrational thought that dictated a decision I made. I knew, without a doubt, that I would remember the pain of losing my sister as soon as I entered South Carolina. That didn't happen either. I saw shiny roads, pine trees, and the ocean….as she got to experience those things too. Mom was so good at making sure she was included. 

Irrational thoughts and manic actions had in one way form or another prevented me from letting go. Letting go of the what if’s, and just being present. Remembering that I had loved the ocean before I got married or divorced. South Carolina wasn't a failure…it made me grow. I literally wouldn't be who I am today….without South Carolina. So my mom inadvertently helped me discover one of the biggest hurdles I've dealt with since my divorce.  Kinda dope she did that too. 

HA! I said it was short, I lied. My bad. 

Alright, what else is there to update? Zach and I are doing great. I could probably write a whole page about that man…but I won't embarrass him like that. Just know, he is still IT. I knew it the moment we met. Funny…I can't remember what I ate for dinner last night, but I can remember what we both were wearing the day we met over a year ago. Damn, I love this man. 

We've taken some trips recently that were pretty dope. We do so much together…I'm truly happy about that, as we've both said work gets in the way of hanging out. Das love right there. Like actual love. The kind where you both put effort in to make it work. I feel we are extremely lucky , we understand each other in a way no one has ever understood me ... .sorry family…but not even you guys. He just gets it. All of it. I get him too. Our lives intertwined at the perfect moment for both of us. We needed each other, and still need each other. 

Okay, okay…Ill stop gushing. I tend to do that often. 

Moving forward…the thing I want you to take away from all of this- learn to let go better. Learn to let go permanently. Do it for yourself. Think of all the time you're wasting not doing something different to overcome whatever IT is. Be selfish. Choose YOU. You're the only one that can do the work …and honey, its work. Every day. Every decision. Damn near every thought has to be pushing you towards your goal of letting go. 

I want to end with this poem by Stefanie Briar, “ Surrender” 

One of the hardest lessons

Is learning the difference 

Between when to hold on

And when to let go. 

At some point, 

We have to trust

That souls know their way home. 

What is meant for you will find you ….

And stay. 

I think that sums up pretty well how to view letting go. This was good today. I appreciate you taking the time to read…and hopefully youll think of something you can just let go.

[hearts401]

oh is that an opportunity to ramble i hear? dont mind if i do

firstly i hate lizzie being the daddys girl sorryyyyy its boring 2 me!!! i dont think will even liked her i just think she preferred him over whatever the fuck her brothers were doing in their little corner lol. william literally made an animatronic for her and then made it a child killing machine "he made it for her" like okay but he also made it for himselffff didnt he? liek... also in tse (which ik isnt game canon) he does hit her doesnt he? and hes annoyed by her? like this is a little girl with nothin better to do who is constantly asking to go see the murder bot. and in the end he didnt even try very hard to stop her? like she wanted to be daddys girl but she wasnt lmao. also her desperation to prove herself to him/make him proud like... normal girls whos fathers loved them ddddont do that. william didnt like her she was probably just the most tolerable because she wasnt crying all the time and she wasnt michael. being michael is like a death sentence. but ill come back to that when i talk about him lol. she loved her father and even went as far as convincing herself he called her to teh fnaf 6 location so she could help him, only to figure out he was there, but hed never called her, and had never come to find her. he was too wrapped up dealing with michael. dddoesnt give the vibes of a loving father lol. i dont think he WANTED her to die, obviously cbby wasnt made to kill her (in fact none of his kids' deaths were directly by him, the aftons are just unlucky like that) but she did die and it was his fault because he doesnt understand how kids work ig

idk i feel like too many ppl use the whole "spoiled brat" thing too much like... i dont think she was spoiled at all but. okay.

NOW FOR MICHAEL. WOOH THERES A LOT.

this is specifically teen mike but i'll talk about adult mike too... maybe... i dont know actually IM JUST GOING ON OKAY DONT MIND ME

firstly yall give him too much credit im SORRYYY. i dont think william was the reason he bullied evan. i dont think his friends were the reason he bullied evan. i think he was a bored teenager who was annoyed/amused by his little brother's sensitivity and decided hey lets make fun of him why? cuz its funny. he has 0 emotional intelligence and is insensitive because its not him whos being treated badly. like. think about it this way. he is also being treated like shit/ignored by william. so obviously, mental health issues ensue. so he needs to find a few things: attention, entertainment, and a distraction.

actually kids who are neglected act out a lot, and this could be a form of michael acting out.

entertainment is obvious. he finds it funny. he does it excessively, yeah, but thats because he doesnt have a lot of it. he has friends who find it funny to, so hes gonna be like "yo lets do this" because its something his friends can get behind. again, attention.

finally, distraction is obvious and basically the same as entertainment.

the worst part of all this is that thru finding a way of coping with his issues, he takes away any coping evan has. he cant hang out at fredbears cuz hes scared, he cant go home because hes scared. he gets locked in his room, and he cant make friends because hes just the crybaby who hides under the tables.

but this isnt about evan if i talk about him ill get sad.

teen mike would not immediately switch up if evan didnt die. if he understood what could have happened/the severity/maybe even had some sense knocked into him, then hed reevaluate, but hes not suddenly the best brother in the world.

and another thing, and this might be a hot take idrk

he would not cook for his siblings. he would not clean the house. that boy takes hte trash out at the end of the day and that is IT. if william doesnt cook, nobody will. and i assume that he does because as awful as he is, hes not tryna get arrested. HE HAS KIDS TO MURDER PEOPLE!!!!

i dont think hes the adult of the house and ive mentioned before that i dont think the afton brotehrs eat dinner with lizzie and william. just because they dont give that vibe. william wouldnt WANT lizzie there but its not like the worst thing thats happened tohim and i bet hed rather her than the crybaby and the MICHAEL.

the afton brothers probably dont eat dinner together either but thats more likely than the alternative.

i lost my train of thought i had so many thoughts so expect word vomit now

mike just overall gives asshole teen vibes. if evan and lizzie hadnt died he wouldve needed the wake up call of the century

i dont think hes responsible (frankly i dont think hes a very responsible ADULT.) and i dont think he was forced, coerced, or felt obligated to bully evan the way he did. i think that view of him takes away a lot from his character. and from the aftons in general.

i want more the aftons are toxic but MORE than just william. I want more than just bad dad because michael was a bad brother and i cant see lizzie being a very good sister and evan didnt have a choice. he probably tried but yknow.

thats about all i can think of right now i hope you guys understand what im saying

im starting to think its less "nobody gets them like i do" and more "ive made up a very specific interpretation of them in my head that nobody else would understand unless i explained it in excruciating detail"

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Alvin being a traitor is so obvious that even tho I WASNT spoiled I was like. Oh yeah this guy is lying constantly and would sell out the party for one corn chip. The shocking part was how hard he goes during that last sellout lmao Like raven is imo next worse in terms of tales party traitors but he never shot Estelle or anything. Alvin legit is going for a tpk when he shoots leia and fights jude and that is. A Bit Worse. But I love him anyway lol

​RIGHT. I feel like they didn't actually intend Alvin's betrayal to be a plot twist. But you're right, the surprise with Alvin isn't that he's untrustworthy (because, duh) but just how off the rails he goes.

Raven's treachery is more a crime of passively accepting evil. He doesn't try to kill Estelle himself, he just hands her over, knowing someone else will hurt her. When he fights the party, his heart is clearly not in it (or in him, for that matter). He's just going through the emotions, and helps them escape immediately after.

But Alvin??? He accepted money to go out of his way to kill his former friends and came damn near close to succeeding. He's not being blackmailed like Anise, he's not trying to provoke Jude into killing him like Zelos, he's just fucking lost it and doesn't care anymore.

And it's my favourite scene in the whole game. Even though when I play, I always get the version where Alvin beats Jude because I suck at video games.

There's no playful punching Alvin one by one to "make things even" and then bringing him back onto the team without another word. Alvin rightfully fucks off and there's a whole chunk of the game without him, where the remaining party has the grapple with what he did and how they feel, and while Alvin has to go off on his own to work out his shit before he's ready to return.

And it ultimately leads to this, my second favourite scene in the game.

Where he finally talks it out with Elize and she forgives him and aaaaaaaaaaa

I don't have any romantic ships in this game, but the friendship between Alvin and Elize is everything to me.

But anyways, rambling about Alvin aside, I agree with everything you said. Alvin is a goddamn disaster who fucked up real bad and did some awful things and then the game lets him process that and seek redemption rather than brushing it off. And I love him for it.

[gayspock]

OK not a liveblog per se but i have to SAY THINGS GOSH and im stalling so i dont finish LOL IM SCARED

alright bc thething is i have had my brain shut off for the past few weeks whatever the fuck i havent been in a "lets sit down and talk ad nauseum about it"

whichis such a shame bc LIKE... first bit of s4? i think the opener was bad but a lot of it otherwise middling- HOWEVER AFTER THAT.. GOD THERES BEEN SO MUCH TO SAY SINCE I JUST HAVENT TALKED ABOUT IT

and speaking of openers. i think its kinda funny. premiere notwithstanding, it feels like farscape kinda sucks at openers but literally KNOCKS IT OUT OF THE PARK with season finales. literally. in the thick of it now- but i genuinely think theyve always been, like, so so strong.and thats genuinely so hard to pull off, man.

like im a dw fan and anyways yeah so dw has some of the most inconsistent finales imaginable and it makes me really appreciate a show that CAN do them. like: theyre busy but paced well; its not predictable but its not overly convoluted; theres ups and downs, and theres complications but theyre never contrived.

and i do think farscape has a problem with benching characters and forgetting they exist sometimes but HERE at least they are keeping all of them constantly engaged which is really hard man i do admire it its like..... theres such an ENERGY . like its a proper culmination of events and people coming together and all characters just on their a-game, with a genuinely good story as a foundation. BC ITS EASY ENOUGH TO JUST BRING EVERYONE IN, and arbitrarily up the stakes BUT its another thing to not just... rely wholly on that? which i say again bc you know. doctor who. SORRY TO BE GUY THAT ONLY WATCHES 2 SHIKWS- BUT ITS IN MY HEAD RIGHT NOW, FOR OBVIOUS REASONS.

ANYWYS

i shouldhave tlaked more abt the eps in specific but firstly the lead up to this was crazy like the last part of s4 has been so good.

i loved bringing home the beacon. #jirl power. like for all my reservations about noranti and sikozu (which i'll get into more) i do love likejsut seeing... an episode full of women? which i dontknow that probably sounds stupid but god i jsust feel like... EVEN NOWADAYS, when they do have a lot of women in a show sometimes its just forced and i dont mean that in the arsey way i mean that as in, like, they just put more and more women in without properly developing them and so its just a load of stock characters- BUT HERE, we have a genuine range of girlies here carrying the episode each with their own agency, so theyre capable of having such a good dynamic and LISTEN. DUMB BUT ITS REFRESHING. and i really loved the back and forth with aeryn and sikozu in particular and the more tenuous political situation and their reactions to it and how theyre actually similar but obviously have such different ideas on what to DO here like ougghghgh ... AND THE END. SHEESH. its like- its one of those things where you knew it was coming but BY GOD. THE END OF THIS EPISODE.

and then i really loved a constellation of doubt- love introspective episodes, set before/after the more epic finale-type parts - and how it functions like.. especially establishing john's distance from earth and like... how we STARTED this journey with him so desperate to return to it and you'd think that would be the finale of the show but we've been there and it wasnt right bc hes different now and NOW its about aeryn SHE'S the end goal now baby..................

then my fucking god. prayer was holy shit that was DARK as fuck and like- LIKE YAOI BREAK JOKES ASIDE, like... i fucking loved scorpius and john "working together" like that and the tension and JESUS when FUCKING SCORPIUS JUST.... like that whole alternate world is so fucked up man. so fucking fucked up.

AND THEN- GOD, THE AERYN STUFF... LIKE EVERYTHING I SAID ABOUT JOHN/SCORPIUS, part of me wishes the whole episode was a long and . immersive look into hers but also i sure a sfuck dont because holy fucking shit like... I WAS SO NERVOUS, YOU KNOW, about the pregnancy storyline going into s4 bc with scifi, stories about pregnancy can so easily go fucking wrong and get horrible and uncomfortable if the writers dont do well AND ESPECIALLY if youre going to darker places likethis like jesus fuckingchrist but... i do think they did a good job of like leaivng aeryn in control of her narrative if that makes sense. i think thats my issue otherwise- like again, with dw the worst fucking offender, who barely even let amy fucking reflect on any of that shit when what she went through was a bodily violation compatable to r#pe but WHATEVER uhm - LIKE... obviously aeryn is also going fucking through it, jesus, horrible fucking shit is happening to ehr, but i dont- like im not against that, you know, so long as we do get to see her and we hear her and its not about crichton although his side is important, and its not FOCUSSED on the horror of it in some strange voyeuristic way (although it can be dangerously close to that) i still found it to be about... HER. YEAH? AND SEEING HER PERSPECTIVE. AND god.....................fuckme.............

andits so funny bc liekfor all i said abt loving the ifnale I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT TO SAY

I DONT I FOR SURE DONT IM STILL IN IT AND MY HEAD IS FUCKING MUSH THATSWHY IM WRITING ALLTHIS

WHEN STARK REAPPEARED- okay firstly. i love the hair so bad. why didnt we get that. BUT LIKE- WHILST SCORPIUS didnt buy it i for sure bought it at first LOL like msotly bc i have always admired farscape for allowing characters to always have quite a lot of nuance, and having their own individual agenda like.. you know what i mean? its like- going back WAY back to the beginning, with dna mad scientist, it'd be so easy to have them all have a firm allegiance to one another BUT NOPE. and here i'd be like- FUCK, MAN, I DONT KNOW. i wouldnt be fucking mad with stark if he wanted to fuck around and just torture the shit out of scorpius after all he fucking went through, you know.

and speaking of agendas

okay sikozu. which can i say? i keep mispelling her name. thats one thing farscape sucks at. the names are good and inventive and pack flavour- but not fucking memorable, in the slightest. frell me. GOOD CUSSES THOUGH THEYRE GOOD AT THAT I KEEP ACCIDENTALLY ALMOST SAYING DREN WHEN MESSAGING PPL. EMBARRASSING. anyway

where was i

FUCKING SIKOZU

i havent continued watching yet but the whole relevation of her and her allegiance to this resistance... right, ok. heres my thing. i really LIKE it, actually, and i have grown to really like her character and i think shes such a fucking interesting person to drop into the cast and has such a good fucking perspective on things and gives good fucking dynamics with quite a few of the existing cast AND i dont hate this storyline with her at all either and i think if itd been established a bit more beforehand or we'd gotten to explore her a bit more beforehand i would have LOVED-LOVED-LOVED her for what she does BUT

its like.. she kind of got introduced weird AND she starkly.. contrasts the kind of sloppy inclusion of noranti and jool? because listen. i just- i cant help but think...FUCK me. i wish sikozu was introduced WAY back in place of jool, since jool kind of did come back around in the end but ultimately i dont think she ever truly found her place in the show or did much constructive, and what she did do sikozu functions as better as AND that extra time could have really better sewed the seeds of this story bc right now it does kinda feel out of nowhere... not completely far-fetched, though, bc i do think it fits for her as she has always been quite cagey and- SHIT MAN. IM REALISING. I COULD REALLY HAVE FUCKING LOVED SIKOZU IF THEYD JUST DONE HER RIGHT LIKE

and its like i said. i did like jool by the end of her run but i dont think she was... im sorry but i dont think she was ever worth it for what she was and i dont think she really DID much. and i think its like an overall problem farscape as a show has HAD since its moved past s1, wherein like... s1 is SO FUCKING GOOD, and so efficient at building characters well and really putting in the work. but as the show grew it kind of struggled to do that whenever they introduced new ppl which i guess is my frustration with it? they dont rlly take the time to work them into it, in the same way, and i guess they really cant do what they did with s1 bc they have more plot to cover but its a shame. i feel like there was a way to adapt better esp bc like i said like- a lot of the time... the new characters were kind of just?? unnecessary?

and its like dont get me WRONG i dont think a character has to be actively doing something all the time. i stand by the fact rygel is an important character. i think he balances them out really fucking well, serves an important function on the ship in terms of diplomacy and DOES give really good moments and different perspectives that the others could not give. but i think thats also like... dependent on him being a reliably well established character within the show and a thing that has been demonstrated over seasons and in PARTICULAR early on and its usually done with good measure

whereas jool was justlike... genuinely downright bad for the first few eps she was there and it doesnt really feel like she WENT anywhere either in the end even though she did improve and its like. -_- cmon bc SHE DID HAVE AN INTERESTING PREMISE BUT EERHGHG...

and i also bring up noranti bc she too is kind of... just drifting? dont get me wrong- i actually do kind of like her. i know im listening to a podcast alongside the show- and omg, the hosts HATE her so bad. i think shes definitely a taste thing, so id assume jool is too to some extent, bc characters like this are BUT... i do admit she really... hasnt added anything?

and sorry to do this. but im relating it back to dw again. you know dan, yeah? dan was pointless. i liked him. i liked what he brought to the show and i dont think what they tried to do with him was bad. and usually im of the mindsetof like... oh well if they had some good moments with him it wasnt BADLY spent but no ehrm... look... it kinds was, man. bc look- his stuff was good, but it wasnt so original or unique, and i do think a comic relief character did balance them out BUT... its still kind of, like, lazy to just make a whole character for that, yeah? instead of just... developing the ones you have and committing to them? kind of slapping a bandaid on it? like- can yaz and 13 not be funny and lighthearted? cant they carry scenes? and was his story of, like, some fucking dude so singularly unique that you had to compromise 13 and yaz being alone and working on their relationship more in isolation?

thats a more drastic example but my point is i dont know. shes nice and she has had moments but i jsut feel like her too its like... shes really not necessary and its just- i become super conscientous fo it when it jsut feels... redundant to have them about when theres a lot of other more interesting things to explore. i think they justkinda... needed a fucking plot device to write them out of stuff with her powders but like- cmon man..

ANYWAY GOD

WHERE WAS I WITH ALL OF THIS

fucking hel fuck me ive lost all train of thought i should fucking ginish the episo-

IM SCAREEED IM SCAREDDD IM SCAREDDDDTHGOGUGHGHGHHG